I’m just curious, cousin, is it okay not to care? I am not saying you bump into someone and don’t say sorry, because you don’t care. Not that, that’s just blatant disrespect and it may get you popped. I’m talking about you just don’t care to caudle people and nurse their emotions sometimes.
I’m at a place in my life where I’m trying to become the best version of myself; mentally, physically, financially and spiritually. That growth, I’m sure, will come at a cost. I’m willing to incur the cost, because no one will invest in you more than you. I haven’t seen some of my core group of friends- no dinner dates, no movie nights, no nothing. I’m not upset or anything, I just haven’t been feeling social. Make no mistake, if they call me and need me, I’m there. No questions.
As cliche as it sounds, I’m really working on some things. No, I’m not sitting in a lab trying to cook up the cure for cancer, however, my mental well-being is my priority and “curing” it will be an ongoing process. I felt and feel like I have to pull back from everyone, especially if I’m not the upbeat person they are accustomed to. Think about it, you ever go out and there is that one person with the piss poor attitude? I’m talking, straight Debbie Downer, like you just side eye them the entire time and ask yourself, “Why s/he ain’t just stay they ass at home?!” Just thinking about it probably brought back memories. It’s okay, cousin, we’ve all been there. I do not want to be that person to anybody, so I choose to stay away. Occasionally, I’ll respond to a group chat or send a “🤣🤣” to a message on social media. Cousin, I know you’re probably thinking, “Well how are you a better cyber friend, than a real one?” Honestly, I can choose to respond or not, but if you’re in my face, I’m forced to deal with you and I can’t take that. I like to have options! If you see I saw your post and didn’t respond, you either send another message and guess what? I ignore that too. I know it sounds mean, but on the lowest of keys, I don’t care.
I DON’T CARE! ( I had to say that out loud to confirm it in my spirit) I don’t care if people feel some kind of way that I’ve been a little absentee, I don’t care if people think I’m hanging out with some other people, I don’t care if people think I’m “brand new”, none of it. When people have already written a poorly supported thesis or narrative on your life, why would you bother exhausting yourself trying to debunk that theory. That’s on them, not you.
I have an issue with always explaining myself when it’s not necessary. I care too much about not offending anyone or coming off some kind of way. Enough of that! Uncle-Daddy, Rickey Smiley, said the realest thing ever and he’s said it several times, “No, is a complete sentence that warrants no further explanation”….WHEW CHILE. A word. Can we pass the collection plate?
You can love people-friends and family and not want to be bothered with they ass. That doesn’t mean you’re a bad person or that they did anything to you. However, that doesn’t mean they won’t be in their feelings, but emphasis on “their”.
** Newsflash: If you don’t care, that’s cool too! You aren’t wrong! Don’t let anybody make you feel bad either.
Sometimes we get so caught up in caring about other people and their feelings, we neglect our own. No more, cousin!
Going forward in this second quarter of 2019, we’re moving differently and we aren’t caring who doesn’t understand why we’re operating the way we are.
Moral of the story: It’s okay not care, if you don’t think so, guess what? I don’t care.